So I proved my own theory perfectly yesterday. By writing down all my options I was able to free some space in my brain for other things.
What I learned was:
1. My CCI family is absolutely incredible. Not only did they offer up other options but I was offered a place to stay, Arri was offered a place to stay, dogs were offered to keep Arri company. It blows my mind. and brought tears to my eyes. Thank you!!! You are the best.
2. I was able to step back and get a fresh perspective. Unless something significant changes medically, Arri will stay home alone on graduation day and have a Grandma and Grandpa (aka my parents) hang out with him for a few hours.
3. I also came to some light bulb moment observations, namely:
Arri's mother is a bit nuts and should be medicated. Some of you already were aware of
this but were too kind to say it to me.
Arri will be perfectly fine staying home alone. He is a big boy.
Arri's mother is the one suffering from separation anxiety - not Arri - although he is the one
that follows me around the house. Mom just has a hard time leaving him. Again, many
of you recognized this already but were too kind to slap me upside the head and tell me to
get a grip. I consider myself head slapped.
4. I have started the 8 step (day) program for temporarily dealing with my separation anxiety.
Step 1: The roughly 2 hr round trip cookie delivery yesterday was done alone. I had
every intention of taking Arri with for the ride but I didn't.
Step 2: Work in the bakery for 1/2 a day - gating the stairs so Arri can not follow me
down. Pretend Arri is alone and that Tim is not really upstairs with him. Do not
check on him every hour.
Step 3: Go to the bridal show on Saturday without guilt. Somebody's gotta make the
donuts (cake) around here. Again - pretending Tim is not home with Arri which
he will be.
Step 4: Go to church on Sunday without guilt because Arri wants to go with. Sneak out
another door if necessary to avoid the guilt he will throw at me.
Step 5 - 8: spend the day with Arri since the first 4 days were just too much time away : )
This is one instance where working from home just isn't the best thing. If I worked outside the home, leaving them home for long hours would be routine. Surely if a couple million dogs survive this process daily, mine will. For the most part, I can count on the house not burning down but I just might find something torn to shreds as a welcome home gift. (not really because they don't get free roam of the house, but then again, kennel pads make great confetti)
Today is step 2 and I have already found a need to go upstairs for one reason or another 3 times in 2 hours. Maybe I need an intervention?
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